虽然觉得不可思议.但真的有这么奇怪的事情.那张在我记忆中消失了10年的面孔居然会又出现了...发现了好多个长得好象以前朋友的人...这个面孔..呵呵.对了照片以后发觉不像啊.为什么看见她的时候感觉那么象.我想是上天让我遇见以前那些熟悉的面孔..让我重新回到以前..回到过去的我..3年了.JANICE又回来加拿大了...见面以后大家寒喧了一番.聊起来上次见面是在三年前了.好远的以前哦..现在的我们都又长大了.或者是变老了.然后又在学校遇到了2年以前才进来的时候住一楼的朋友.哈.眼前一亮.她变瘦了也变漂亮了哦....后来以前语言学校的朋友也聚会了一下...他们几个..上次见面也是两年多以前了...他告诉我LOU下次可能咋们又两年后再见吧.哈哈.虽然是个玩笑.不过还真有可能.甚至更久吧....下次或许我也毕业离开这里了...谁知道呢......有的时候缘分的事情.可能隔了好多年以后大家还能再遇到...这个女生呢..他的一举一动好象啊..好象以前的邝苏....但长得又不一样.....还有几个也好想以前高中同学......真是好笑吧....让我回到最初..真是最好..现在的我又可以从新看这个女的发呆了.....虽然还是跟以前一样什么都不用做...但总觉得我在重新来过了.............过去两年的我堕落.失去了自我.现在的我终于可以又重新开始...虽然记忆偶尔隐隐做痛.....但我能好好控制我自己了.....不再想那么多.希望有一天彻底好了以后我就可以完全成为一个新的自己了.......一个跟以前一样.或者一个跟以前完全不一样的LOU......再说吧..睡觉了.

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and i'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it

I made by bed, and I sleep like a baby,
With no regrets and I don't mind saying,
It's a sad sad story
That a mother will teach her daughter
that she ought to hate a perfect stranger.
And how in the world
Can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

SNOWING AGAIN.... WINTER IS NOT OVER YET? OH MY WINTER STILL REMAINS

女人啊 华丽的金钻 闪耀的珠光 为你赢得了女皇般虚妄的想像 岂知你的周遭 只剩下势利的毒 傲慢的香 撩人也杀人的芬芳 女人啊 当你再度向财富致敬 向名利欢呼 向权力高举臂膀 请不必询问那只曾经歌咏的画眉 它已经不知飞向何方 因为它的嗓音已经乾枯喑哑 为了真实、尊荣和洁净灵魂的灭亡!

 

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LADIES, PRETTY DIAMONDS, SHINY JEWLLERIES HAVE EARNED YOU MIRAGE AS A QUEEN, BUT WHAT'S LEFT AROUND YOU IS THE POISONED AMBITIONS AND ARROGANT FRAGRANT. ATTRACTIVE BUT ALSO DANGEROUS  AROMATIC. LADIES, WHEN YOU SALUTE TO FAME AND GAIN , LIFT UP YOUR ARMS FOR THAT DISTORTED DESIRES, DONT YOU EVER TRY TO FIND THE THRUSH AGAIN, COZ SHE IS GONE, COZ SHE CAN NEVER SING A SONG. ALL FOR THE DEATH OF NOBLE AND PURE SPIRIT'S EXTINCTING 

 

突然听到.觉得写的好...不只是女人.男人.所有的人都在那势力笼罩下失去了自己的理想,纯洁而高尚的品格.在盲目追求的同时,我忘记了曾经单纯而快乐的自己.忘记了那些给我快乐为我祝福的人.剩下的只有对权利,金钱的追逐.那种种的欲望让我迷失了方向..当有一天一无所有,当有一天失去一切.回到最初,我才发现,原来开心只是那么简单的追求, 幸福只是那么简单的欲望...那些所谓的追逐原来只是一场玩笑..所谓的为了理想而追逐,为了幸福而随波逐流.原来都是那么的不堪.因为那些欲望让我真正失去了理想和幸福.让我失去了曾经挂在嘴角真实的欢笑. 记得初中学过一篇文章.有一位教授说过,人生不过是在并不平静的湖边空掉一场的游戏...是啊..当我得到所有的满足..失去了幸福的微笑..那残留的灵魂里面又还有什么值得我骄傲?最终的一切还是随时间的流失被岁月淹没..这种没有尽头的游戏.真的是上天跟我开的一个玩笑!

这么久了.删删.减减.这个SPACE仍旧保留了下来.很多次,想把他彻底删了.可最后却下不了决心..有太多的回忆.虽然我不想保存那些回忆..但却有些回忆我想保留.于是我删掉了很多.留下了继续. 狗年.我的本命年过了.希望今年我能一切顺利.现在的我绝情弃爱,只想要在人生事业中发展.我想要的只是成功..一种需要和炫耀....有时候想想.自己太急进了....我要一步一步往上爬...所有的欲望只剩这个了.我记得好多年前..我在自己的QQ许愿树里面写下了愿望"事业成功,和爱的人在一起"现在呢?什么都没有......只有继续我的生活.努力吧..新的一年里.加油.我可以的.......

I have been so fool... always so fool.... why do i trust .. why do i even expect...why do i even tell myself. that no matter what happens, true heart will find the path out........and it is wrong.... so wrong.. never, i shall never trust again......no tear left coz i left with no regret........tired.. yes.. always....looking for the way out ..out of this world. return where i belong where i was. .........    Love,,,what a piece of shit......................i have only one ambition left which is to succeed in my life........that's what a man should be doing..............living his life with his ambition....

Here in Vancouver is really boring. i am sick and i am sinking here. the past few years have been the hardest years for me.everything in my life is not going the directoin as i expected. but well, as a man i have to suffer. and i have to struggle. there is alwasys hope. i believe. Things will get better. i will be more like me later.

anyway... had a great weekend.. first time ever been to the strip club. nice.. first experience. i have been wondering this kinda place for long...well, it is not quite that crazy as i thought.but it is in a higher standard. guess i am too bored. just keep searching for new funs for myself......what's gonna be the next ? i will see.